Forget working out and getting healthy -- 2015 marked the year I told myself I was going to put my big girl pants on and stand my ground (ethically, NOT IN THE FUCKED UP FLORIDA WAY). What I didn't realize was that I would, in fact, be putting on my literal big girls pants because I've gained a size. But that is beside the point. Or is it? ...maybe getting in shape should have been my resolution.
If there is one thing I like more then a comfy, soft Base Range bra... it's a skank-nasty, meshy, see thru, meow meow, nipples galore number. Not because I want to show the world my nipples... quite the opposite actually. They are just really fun to wear. So long as you know your shirt isn't going to nip slip you, I absolutely love a meshy or lace-y bra sneak peak with one of my T by Alexander Wang tanks. ALL ABOARD THE TRAIN TO NIPPLETOWN, USA!!!
Please Excuse this Inturruption to the Bra Series to Bring You a Size Related Announcement
Guys... my whole world has been flipped on its head.
I went to Journelle, otherwise known as boob mecca, to browse around and see all my bra week picks in the flesh. We started to debate the salesperson on our sizing and Haley, not believing what this lady was selling, opted to get measured. I wasn't about to try anything on, but then I got curious... "measure me, tooooo," I shouted while running into their dressing room already sans shirt.
And that's precisely when my mind was blown to smithereens.
Intimates that make you feel like you are queen of the mother 'effing world.
What are the best words to describe this bra set? HOLY, FUCKING, and SHIT seem very appropriate. I mean, I look at it and I immediately regress into the cartoon character who sees a pretty lady and has their eyes pop out of their head while they shout: A-WOO-GA A-WOO-GA! It combines all of my favorite things: straps, high risk nipple exposure, highwaisted underwear, cutouts, and mesh.
For bras when you're not really ready to look like you're trying to buy cute bras because you JUST met that guy off tindr and don't want him to think you care that much and it's not like you're planning when to introduce him to your parents or anything ...or you just like cute bras!
Sportswear is all the rage right now. People are like, CrossFit this! Pilates that! -- but if you're anything like me, you just want to look active without having to be active. And that's where sportswear inspired bras come in. Throw these on under a loose tank (or wear solo if they are tank-y enough) and all of the sudden you look like a healthy individual who knows what the hell a burpie is. P.S. What the hell is a burpie? Actually, please DO NOT tell me as I don't need to hear 4,000 more pitches about why I should check out CrossFit.
BRA WEEK... it's like shark week, but with more nipples.
For the next couple of days I am going to be walking you through my deep obsession with lingerie, intimates, underwear, and whatever you want to call them that isn't the word "panties" because aren't we all in agreement that word is used exclusively by child molesters and guys with creepy fetishes.
As a self-proclaimed lover of expensive clothing, I buy Rag & Bone.. I buy J Brand.. I buy random brands I've never heard of but are really expensive at lil boutiques... but give it a little time and I always come back to the tried and true BDG jeans from Urban.
In Love with Expensive Stuff: My Personal Experience with Living Up to My Astrological Sign
What's your sign?
K, end of story.
I'm not someone who necessarilyyyy buys into astrology, sun signs, and the like; though I enjoy indulging in them every once in a while (mainly when they suit my point -- classic leo behavior, amiright?!). According to my sign, I also like indulging in expensive ass shit. This is true.
Behind the Scenes: Photography Struggles/Successes
Where have I been!?!
Running a global* business, that's where!!! (*very small and tiny)
So... what's happening at HQ you ask? Or didn't ask? Well, Haley, besides being my super awesome friend and shop model, has now become my super super generous friend who gives up her Sundays to come to anomie HQ and run the biz with me all day. It's a huge help; but most importantly, it's fun as all hell. Graphic design, rebranding, photoshoots, workspace decor planning, outfit trying on, cuddling puppies, financial planning, to-do list making, more cuddling puppies, and other super professional stuff.
Work/Life/Blog/YouTube/Boyfriend/Friends/Family Balance: AKA Everything I'm Failing At... Or Am I?
How do you balance everything?!
Self-motivation, that's how! And what do I lack? Say it with me now... SELF MOTIVATION!
Am I too lazy to be a wonder woman and get up at a decent hour, make breakfast, get dressed, do my makeup, go to work, make sure my dog is constantly fed and pee/poop free, get downtown more often to scope out what's in stores, keep up with my friends' lives, post a video and blog post at least once a week, manage all the behind the scenes anomie paperwork/quickbooks/buying/sales/logistics/customer service/photography/office + packing supplies/social media/etc..., drive home, hit up the grocery store, make dinner, grab drinks with friends, watch whatever TV I wanted, catch up on blogs and YouTube videos from all my favorites (literally something I have not done in like 8 months), read magazines, play The Sims and Sim City on my phone (recent, very time-sucky addictions I've adopted this week), and get to bed at a reasonable time?
Someday, hopefully, I will open a boutique (though I hate that term --
how about just "shop"?) in San Francisco. It's been a secret dream of
mine and life is too short not to follow your dreams. Do what you love,
not what you think you love or what you think you should do or what your
family wants you to do (though I never did listen to the latter). If
nothing else has come out of my 8 months of free time post-grad, that is
it. Oh, just listen to this. I have one minor brush with cancer and I'm
sitting here waxing poetic about what I truly want out of life -- what a
Re: shop name. God, endless brainstorming. Do you know how hard
it is to find a simple, one word shop name that sounds chic, yet
unpretentious at the same time?! For a while I was thinking "hanger"
with the shopfront logo being a giant iron hanger, but in this day and
age you want something that's yours. Something you can actually get a
web address for! After stupidly saying stuff like, "I just want a word
that means more than just a word, like a phrase or something," one
hundred times over, Ryan inspired me to look at the name of different
theories (he's really big on getting credit for that). I immediately
thought back to my classes at SFSU, Villanova, and Penn and decided to
call it anomie (pronounced: anno-me), lest all those years
of studying criminology and tuition checks go to waste. It's a
sociological term developed by Durkheim, meaning a state or normlessness
I have somewhat of a vibe
in mind. In my head it's sort of helmut lang minimalism meets industrial edge meets hip, LA independent jewelry designer.
In all, I plan to sell clothes, jewelry, bags, beauty products,
stationary, papergoods, and homewares... and anything else I'd like.
I've got a growing list of amazing independent jewelry designers to
start with and I'm really excited about the whole process.
Online first. Until that brick and mortar dream comes true, I'm planning to start with an online shop (shopanomie.com
-- coming soon) to see if this path is a viable option for me. As I
said, I've got a long list of jewelry pieces I want to sell, many
of the pieces I own and love already. For the first while, I will stick
to jewelry, accessories, and other smaller items. Clothes will come in
time. I'd been waiting until the new calendar year started to file with
the state to
establish my LLC, get a tax ID, resellers license, open a company bank
account, and the rest of the necessary legal and logistical start
your own business type stuff. My dad started his own businesses and has
self-employed since before I was born, so naturally I'm picking his
brain during this process to ensure I don't "fuck up," to put it gently.
I want to be as eco-friendly as possible in the process, so I've already
found all the bulk mailing, packaging, and gift wrap supplies I'll need
made exclusively out of recycled paper. In my head, I envision every
jewelry item mailed in a brown box with a stamp of the store's logo and
some thin brown string wrapped around it and everything else wrapped in a
tissue paper with string and a tied on card with the logo stamped on. I
always love when I order things from online retailers and they come
thoughtfully wrapped and I definitely want people to feel that when they
order from anomie. Handwritten thanks yous with every order. An obvious care taken with each package. That whole deal.
I'm moving back to California in March and will be going full force with
it then (and possibly get work in boutiques for experience). Until that
time, I will be consumed by meticulous planning and painful biting of
my tongue. The online shop is pretty much finished and I just
desperately want to have some inventory to post and to set it live. For
an incredibly impatient person, this aspect has been the most
challenging. Impulse control is not my forte.
I'm excited for further researching designers, visiting trade shows, and
finding amazing pieces to offer. Though I don't have professional
experience in buying or merchandising, I know I can be successful at
this. This is what I love. And it's perfect for me. I wanted a mix of
creative and more business-like work. I am a creative person (though,
I'm starting to question that given the best adjective I came up with in
the last sentence was "business-like" to describe more logistical
work), but I don't want to solely be focused on creative things. I'm a
business minded and right-brained person, but I don't want that to be
the only thing I do. I really love paperwork (inventory, reports,
etc...), marketing, and other aspects unrelated to the actual fashion,
so I know I can handle the behind the scenes of running a shop. I can do
taxes and pick out interesting necklaces. 21st century HBIC. I think I
will find being a shop owner/girl to be a very personally fulfilling
career (can I please put HBIC as my title on my business cards?!); and
naturally, I'd love to have a place to get dressed up to go to everyday
(with no dress code!). Dexter would also love to be shop dog. We've just
got to work on that whole barking at strangers thing first though.
Big ideas. Some day, down the road, I'd even love to have my own
clothing and jewelry line of the same name as the shop and work on
collaborations with various artists to fill the store. You know what I'd
some day die over: Clare Vivier x
anomie. Just die. Collabs would be amazing to explore; I have a lot of
design ideas, but sadly lack the skills and knowledge to execute. Very
frustrating. Regardless, I plan on taking classes and doing a lot of
self-teaching to get to that point with metalwork, paper/letterpress,
Photoshop/Illustrator, jewelry making, sewing, and other creative